Was this the way things were meant to be is this how everything was suppose to play out?
Over and over again I think of what is suppose to be happening and where I should be. And I haven’t had any of what I thought to happen go my way. Seems as every time I get ahead something is there to pull me back to reality and let me know that no matter what I do things will not go my way. I’m only here occupy space and time until I figure something else out.
I always had a idea of how I wanted this to play out and thus far everything has been fucked up. I have so many questions but can’t find a single answer. I don’t know what else to do or if there is really anything else that I can do. There is going to come a day where I will self-destruct and hopefully on that day I will receive the answers that I so desperately need.